Happy Girl

I got a letter yesterday from the Wallace State Community College Nursing Education Department. It went a little something like this, "You suck!" Oh well. I expected that. I had to apply for RN because apparently they only do LPN in the fall. I didn't want to do RN because I knew I barely had what I needed (I'm talking 2.5 is the cut off GPA and I had a 2.51) and that it's more competitive than LPN. But instead of letting my application go to waste, I gave it a shot. I was told that they only send letters to those who get in, so when I got the letter, I was actually pretty excited. Then I opened it - not so excited anymore. I was a little bummed out, but it's okay.

It's not okay that I feel like I can't do anything right for a certain person (not Caleb). I would like some support, but I think that's asking too much. All I want is for him to let me be happy. I don't want to do RN yet. I haven't wanted to since I changed my major to nursing at UAB. It's wonderful that RN's make more money and that RN's are so much better, but I don't want to! It's my education. The fact that I'm even going into nursing school at any level should be good enough, right? WRONG! Unlike you, I don't do things because I want the money, I do things because I enjoy them. If I was only focused on the money, I would be in medical school, not nursing school. If you think RN is so great, YOU DO IT! I just want you to be considerate since I JUST got rejected, and I'd like for you to support what I do. I don't give two craps if you don't want me to do it because it's my life and I have to live it for ME, not for you! If it makes me happy, shouldn't that be good enough?

UGH!

On a light note, Caleb is always supportive. I couldn't have asked for a better man. He only wants me to be happy and he makes me feel like I'm awesome even when I don't feel awesome! I love him to death! :)