Happy Girl

I have heard Joseph Kinnaird say a million times "One day you will look back at the way you look today and ask yourself 'What was I thinking?'" Maybe he is just saying this because he once sported an E.T. with a mullet and denim jacket look.
Last night at drama practice, we watched videos of two past dramas. Most of the dramas we do, we learned between 2002-2004. The ones we watched last night were to the songs "Waiting" by Stavesacre and "Heal Me" by Aaron Jeoffrey. I realized during the course of these videos that Joseph's theory is in fact correct. I've done a lot of changing since 2004, when both videos were made. Here is a list of things I noticed.

1. I was unbelievably skinny. My drivers license says I weigh 112lbs, because that's what my permit said (which I got in 2004), and at my last renewal I didn't have the heart to tell the lady my real weight. I've gained a 4 year old since then.
2. My hair was really short. Upon further observation, I had the "bangs in the eyes" look. In one drama, my bangs were covering one eye during 75% of the song. I looked ridiculous. Now I hate having my hair in my face. I wear it in a ponytail 90% of the time.
3. My shirts always looked too short. I used to go to the thrift store and pick out little boys size shirts. I still to this day don't know why I did that. I guess I thought it looked cute. In hindsight, it just made me look stupid.
4. I never smiled. I vaguely remember my 14th and 15th years of life, but I'm pretty sure at some point I tried really hard to be "scene" (which explains the bangs, the shirts, the belts -- and the pantyhose necklace, UGH!). I guess part of being scene included hating everything and looking sad all the time. For all of the uninformed, "scene" was a precursor to "emo", except on a less depressing and more "stick it to the man" level. Scene kids just wanted to beat up everyone.
5. I didn't see this one the videos, but I just remembered that one time when I was 15, I painted my toenails white, I wore a black Britney Spears T-shirt, dark jeans and a white studded belt. The night I wore that, Andrew Best made fun of me, and rightfully so.

I've come to the conclusion that being an adult is far better than being a teen. I may dress frumpy now, but at least I don't look like the thrift store, hot topic, a homeless person, and Pac-Sun had a baby and it threw up on me.


Related song:: Fifteen by Taylor Swift