Happy Girl

I go to UAB.

I failed two classes my freshman year and made a D in one.

I never had to study in high school. I made A's and B's without studying very much. I was excited about the whole "you never have to come to class in college" kind of college. Umm... I don't know who decided to tell me that, but I'd like to punch them in the eye. Because it is not true.
I decided that I could not go to my "easy" classes (dance) and I ended up failing it. I know that makes me sound really stupid to fail dance, but we rarely actually danced. If that had been the case, I could have passed easily, but I had to READ and WRITE! Two things I don't associate with a dance class. I also failed Western Civ. because I made a 65 on the first test, didn't show up for the second test, was absent or late a lot, and the professor just flat out told me that I wouldn't be able to bring my grade up at that point.

After looking at my current GPA and course plan, I would like to go back in time and kick myself square in the butt and these are the reasons why:

1) I'm having to repeat classes. I'm repeating Western Civ. right now and the lowest grade I've made is an 87. =]
2) My GPA was a 1.6 at the beginning of the 2008-2009 school year. At this current moment, it's a 2.0. And after this semester, it will be a 2.4. Have to have a 2.75 by Spring '10 to apply for nursing school in the Fall '10.
3) In a perfect world, if I continued to attend UAB, I would not have a degree until 2012.
4) I'm about to go take a final that I have not studied for because I've been spending every free minute to study for the classes I'm not doing good in and the classes that actually count toward my major, because
5) I took a lot of classes thinking I was going to do sociology and wasted a lot of credit hours and a lot of money.
6) And I have to take a summer class... and I don't like that.

BUTT KICK.

Because of all of this, I will be attending Wallace State Community College in the Fall.
EDIT:: GO LIONS!

Yes, I have had 8 or 9 boyfriends in the past. Yes, none of those "relationships" lasted longer than a few months. Yes, I did go through a period of my life when I tried to find love in a lot of different guys. Yes, I know that was stupid. Yes, I sowed my wild oats and I've reaped a lot of pain and insecurity. Yes, I have a horrible reputation in every way you could possibly imagine. Yes, I'm annoying. Yes, I used to cause drama constantly. Yes, I'm outspoken. Yes, sometimes I say things and don't think about other people's feelings. Yes, my natural tendency is to be controlling in almost every situation. And yes, I do like having things my way, but everyone does. I just verbalize it more than most. Yes, I know that if you have been my friend for a long time that you are a merciful person, because I probably don't deserve it.

I've changed. I know what's important now and my priorities have shifted. I know what God wants me to do with my life and who God wants me to grow old with in this life. A little over a year ago, I was boy crazy, partying, filling my lungs with smoke, trying to be a typical college student. I had no idea what I wanted to do or how I was going to do it. I was failing 3 classes and honestly just screwing up my life. I was completely aimless. Then in the spring, I started seeking God and not boys or friends or parties. God blessed that in so many ways. He gave me Caleb, a guy that really couldn't stand me when he first met me, and allowed me to fall in love with him. He showed me that He wants me to be a nurse. He gave me passing grades and even A's in a few of my classes. He changed my school this fall. He changed everything. He gave me a path and I'm following it hard. I'm not aimless anymore.

I say this in hopes that you can get to know who I really am now
and not just who I used to be then.

Expressing your opinion or not.
It hurt.

She was born November 9, 1926 in either Campbellsburg or Louisville, Kentucky (the jury is still out on that information). She grew up on a farm there with her dad, Charles Singleton, her mother, Laura Montfort Singleton, and her sister Mildred. After high school, she worked at the local White Castle, where she soon found love. She met James at said White Castle. He had just come back from World War II. She married him in 1946 and they moved back to his hometown of Sayre, Alabama. Over the next 5 years they migrated to Graysville, Alabama, where James built them a house, with his own hands, and started a family. That's the kind of man he was, always wore overalls, always had sawdust in his hair. They had a little girl, but due to complications, she died shortly after birth. In 1950, they had my dad.
They were simple country folks, never had a lot of possessions or money, but they had all they needed. Anne made a lot of her own clothes, and James built most of their furniture. I've never seen my granddaddy in anything except a t-shirt, overalls, and boots, with a carpentry pencil in his overall pocket and a tape measure on his hip.
James had a huge family with a lot of neices and nephews, and a lot of those kids lived with Anne and James. They took them in, cared for them, and treated them like their own. They served in their church for many years, doing maintenence work, teaching bible classes, singing, and ministering to the members. They never turned anyone down that needed anything.
Anne never learned how to drive and never got a license. My grandmother was known in Graysville for many years as "the walking woman". Well into the 21st century, dear Anne walked everywhere she needed to go and a lot of the times, just for fun. She also loved drawing, writing stories, and birdwatching. However, this (see picture) is my favorite memory of her. Every summer, she would pull out this authentic (they had an outhouse and no electricity when they built the house), tin bathtub and fill it up with water. Seeing as how Anne was a very conservative, modest lady, instead of wearing a proper swim suit, she would take one of James' shirts, wrap me up in it, fasten it with a safety pin, and call it the years latest swimming fashion. As a 4 year old, I thought it was the coolest thing ever... and I still do :)





**Who is a descendent of the 37th King of Ulster, Ireland?
Answer correctly and you get cool points!

Thank you, Kelly Clarkson!

Kelly Clarkson: I Do Not Hook Up (Audio)

For finally singing a song for the good girls in the world. I heard this song on the radio the other day and it made me so happy! Then I heard it again on the radio this morning, and the dumb DJ said "Kelly... this song is why everyone thinks you're a lesbian." WELL ISN'T THAT FAN-freakin-TASTIC!?

Apparently, having morals and standards makes you a lesbian! That's good news for all of us. So, if a girl chooses not to go to a club, get wasted, and sleep with any person she finds attractive, that makes her a lesbian. HOWEVER, when Katy (freakin) Perry sings a song about kissing a freakin girl and liking it - THAT'S NORMAL HETEROSEXUAL BEHAVIOR?! That's really good to hear. Obviously, I've been going about this "straight" thing completely the wrong way! I'm really glad I don't know the DJ that said that, because I'd probably hunt them down and punch them in the eye. I'm so sad for teenage girls right now that heard that song and liked it, and then heard that stupid comment.

I find it pretty interesting that Katy Perry, the girl that hooks up with other girls and likes it, co-wrote this song. I really have a strong dislike of her character and her voice.

Proverbs 31:10
"A wife of noble character, who can find? She is worth far more than rubies."

Even then it was hard to find a decent woman! I'm just tired of it being considered crazy for a girl to save herself and to not act like a complete drunken whore. I know a lot of girls that bought into the party girl scene, and they have no respect for themselves, and no one else has any respect for them. I was watching a talk show the other day and this 15 year old girl had bought a promise ring and made a promise to herself to save herself for marriage. The unbelievable thing is that HER MOTHER thought her daughter saving herself for marriage was a bad idea! She was trying to change her mind and take away her promise ring! How completely insane is that? What have we gotten ourselves into? Off the top of my head, I can count 11 girls that I know between the ages of 17 and 20 that either are pregnant or are already mothers. All of these girls except 1 were unmarried at the time of conception.

I understand that people make mistakes, and I'm in no way judging the girls. I'm judging the culture and the things that we label as acceptable and unacceptable and our incredibly skewed view of morals and standards. We've accepted a really bad cycle of impurity and we let it happen for the sake of tolerance and not offending people.

Rant - complete.