Happy Girl

I'm a controlling person by nature. God knows this and doesn't like it. It's not so much that I have to control everything, but if I know something is wrong, I'll do everything in my power to fix it, even though sometimes things are just unfixable.

Right now, God is throwing situations at me that I can't control. I know He is doing this to make my life easier. That sounds contradictory, doesn't it? I know that going through all of this will teach me how to handle uncontrollable situations and when I stop trying to control everything, my life will be a lot easier.

By trying to control everything, I'm telling God that He can't handle the situation and that I must help Him. How retarded is that? The Maker of the universe needs my help in working out the little drama's in my life. I mean, really? Of all things to be controlling about, I try to control the stupidest things. It's become painfully obvious that I don't do a very good job of it either. So I'm giving up. It's really a lot easier than I thought it would be. And I feel a lot better about life now.

I can already see a difference in myself. I can disagree with people, love them, and leave them be. I've NEVER been able to do that before. I've got a long way to go, but I'm really excited about what God is doing in my life right now.

"The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still." Exodus 14:14